I worry about the funding for the coming zentai art festival and I wake up early in the morning to work for this issue.
Maybe this is the age, I am getting old, I cannot do things that is interesting and exciting any longer. I look for stable income and I want to be standard parson who provides 'standard opinion' in order to fit into the society to avoid any risk of obstacle.
I used to feel board when my friend started to say standard opinions and started to dress concervtative. I used to hate my parents being conservative.
I was looking into the changes.
But now I am on the side who resists the changes.
This is what i think about being not able to enjoy the rare holiday but to wake up early to do the work.
When was the last time when I went out just to have fun.