Now I am getting used to Lucy not being around. I feel guilty and I try to miss her. I still place her litter box and bowl where it always is. I try to think if she is around. But I think I know that Lucy died now and I think I know one day w
Now it is becoming normal to not to have Lucy. I open the door because I know Lucy will not come to my room and bite my Sarod strings. I open the door and talk to people because I know Lucy will not run out from the house.
Today, I looked down from the kitchen window like she was doing all the time. I felt the wind and the rain. I felt the sound of traffic and I smell the soil from a plant. And I appreciate what Lucy used to appreciate. I would like to sit on the left site of the kitchen window and see the afternoon and see what is afternoon.
I would like to fee the Lucy like when Lucy was on the earth.
It came suddenly.
When I was doing computer in the morning 9am on 21st November 2010, I called Lucy in because I miss her very much. She came in and hang around my desk. Lucy like to hang around people, she always needs attention. She also like to go on the desk and closet, somewhere high. She came on my desk and she looked the window. She likes to see outside by my desk.
And she decided to go to other window though narrow path. And next minutes, I heard the scratch on the glass.
I did not take it seriously because Lucy always worries me when she makes noise or when I cannot find her. I thought this time also she makes loud noise but I still find her.
I thought I don't want to waste my time looking for her so hard. But I still looked around my room because she was by the window and now I cannot find her.
I looked down the street from the window that was open. But nothing I saw. So I looked Lucy around my room again.
Again and I called her.
And I thought I go down.
I have seen a cat becoming like a parashoot on her own and succesufully lanch the ground. I thought Lucy would have done it and lost in the street. I thought I have to go down and call her name all morning. I thought it would be a hard work to find her on the street as she must be scared of street that she sees after very long. (Lucy was picked up by my neighbour when she was kitten and she still was kitten)
I went down, I didn't know why.
I don't think I should be finding her so fast. So soon. So easily on the street
I made this website today.
Yesterday, Lucy, a cat died. I am very sorry for Lucy.
I am writing about Indian concert review which is my passion. I also write about zentai and other things but without occasional good indian concerts, I would have no air to breath. My wish is to be friend with Indian concert organiser in Singapore who can send me emails on occasions of every Indian concerts. I like both Hindustani and Carnatic, instrumental and vocal. I don't like fusion of Indian and some other things because they are normally not pushing the energy high but instead composing something 'different' in style. What I want is a level of consciousness.