I think I need to live a life even for a day.
The day that I except myself include negative points and except others also.
Without living a day in this true calmness, It is not a consideration to fight for days of longer life.
To think about myself as a cell in the body of the earth, I should be a good cell and make other cell become positive and healthy so that the earth will get better. Being a cancer cell in the body of the earth, I do nothing good for the body. Many white cell need to come to fight for the bad cell to recover from the sickness. I have a free will and freedom of the choice to be a healthy cell. I should be a positive cell as soon as possible.
The earthquake is like a surgery to the body. The body takes in too much sickness that the surgery is necessary to take away the ill parts of the body.
And to be a positive cell, it take nothing but to understand and love myself. I tend to ignore the part that I don't like about myself. including the fact that i need to go to see the doctor for check up one day. I should face the fear because the moment I face the fear, it will disappear. then I can love myself.
With the love to one's own self, I would be able to hear myself. not to be depended on other people's value that is totally got nothing to do with my life yet it disappoints the reality by comparing and wanting for more. Actually there is no happiness in it because the happiness is always coming free at the most nearest area in my room. With my own value, I would be able to see the happiness that was blinded by value that is imposed by anything that was inputed from my ear, eyes and senses. those are illusions that only good for keeping myself busy and help me to postpone to face the reality.
If I want to be a positive cell that is able to heal other cells, I need a ear to hear my own self. I keep ignoring it, every time I switch on the computer, TV, media, party.. I get carried out by massive informations of how other people appear to be.
They only share good news about themselves as much as I looking myself from better angle only.
What kind of art can I create if there's no self in it? I copy the other people's style? creating certain mood? Am I satisfied with it?
The earthquake to me is a death that might come anytime. I might die with the earthquake, if not tsunami, if not by the third situation which most people will be affected, hunger, coldness, no fuel, bacteria, new diseases, fight even there could be a war in those disparate situation because countries realize that the resources are limited and they need to reserve more for their own country. Middle east, China, Russia could start the next war because they already have much potentials.
Worst case scenario is the nuclear war. that cannot be help. no one can help even the earth itself. we will be refuge in the universe as a wondering spirits trying to look for a place to start over again for billion years.