http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm2404735
横尾忠則講義 「こんなふうに僕は絵をかいてきた
横尾忠則講義 「こんなふうに僕は絵をかいてきた
昨日の夜七人の侍を途中まで見た。一人のお侍さんが死んで、村の人たちが泣き叫ぶ場面で眠たくなって寝た。この前の日は羅生門を見て、ひどく感動して寝た。
黒澤明で眠りにつくと次の日分からないけど魔法は起こっている。 
昨日寺院で考えた事を思い出してみる。
えーとまず最初に大きなベットを用意して、その上に座ってベットの周りに備え付けてあるテレビスクリーンのビデオを見るという展示方法のアイデアは十分ではないと思った。 一つの音楽でいくつものビデオを見るというアイデア、デジタル仕掛けの展示ではなく一回ずつセレモニーのようになった方法、何かイベントに参加しているような気分になる展示。。。でも大切な事は忘れた。 昨日ヒンドゥー教のお寺へ行った。行っている時だけは頭の中がすっきりして、考えが整理され、色んなアイデアが浮かんでくる。でも家へ帰ると興奮も醒め、何の事だったのかと思う。また何もアイデアのない状態になり、昨日思いついたアイデアさえ思い出そうとしても思い出せない。 そういう風に頭がすっきりしている状態で作り出さないと後から思い出そうとしても無理だ。 そういう高揚感のある家で生活すると毎日忙しくて時間が足りなくなる。 
I think woman has different task to achieve in this world. When man is build to carry heavier things, woman is build to harmonize the two sides of the balance. Man can have a leadership, assertiveness intellectual cognition, woman can recieve inspirations, supporting role, balancing the energy and healing power. The world had been emphasized on the man's power and woman start to be able to get a rights in the society as much as how much man gets. but the woman's role is not same, when we try to fight with men in the same field, it is not natural for a woman. woman could make as much achievement as man but we do not pretend to behave like a man. Now that the world has full of crisis and problem, we need to cultivate the woman's part in the society one more time because the society has been pulling stress on the man's energy, it has lost its balance. We should create the woman's role in the society to bring the balance to equal and in the same time reduce the conflict that was caused by unbalanced man's ego, fame and games. What is the woman's role, it is to support a man, actually like in the classic story way before the industrization arrived. the woman's life were more independent and we did not need man to bring income to sustain the family life. where woman can be independent, that is where woman really find our role because it is no longer for our own surviving issue but is the work that come out from the love. To establish the woman's role in society, it is necessary to be independent and be able to sustain ourself even with the new born baby. In this case, we can really be able to support a man and bring the conflict into harmony. Independence that create energy to woman and to the society. 
For the earthquake, What do I need to do.
I think I need to live a life even for a day. The day that I except myself include negative points and except others also. Without living a day in this true calmness, It is not a consideration to fight for days of longer life. To think about myself as a cell in the body of the earth, I should be a good cell and make other cell become positive and healthy so that the earth will get better. Being a cancer cell in the body of the earth, I do nothing good for the body. Many white cell need to come to fight for the bad cell to recover from the sickness. I have a free will and freedom of the choice to be a healthy cell. I should be a positive cell as soon as possible. The earthquake is like a surgery to the body. The body takes in too much sickness that the surgery is necessary to take away the ill parts of the body. And to be a positive cell, it take nothing but to understand and love myself. I tend to ignore the part that I don't like about myself. including the fact that i need to go to see the doctor for check up one day. I should face the fear because the moment I face the fear, it will disappear. then I can love myself. With the love to one's own self, I would be able to hear myself. not to be depended on other people's value that is totally got nothing to do with my life yet it disappoints the reality by comparing and wanting for more. Actually there is no happiness in it because the happiness is always coming free at the most nearest area in my room. With my own value, I would be able to see the happiness that was blinded by value that is imposed by anything that was inputed from my ear, eyes and senses. those are illusions that only good for keeping myself busy and help me to postpone to face the reality. If I want to be a positive cell that is able to heal other cells, I need a ear to hear my own self. I keep ignoring it, every time I switch on the computer, TV, media, party.. I get carried out by massive informations of how other people appear to be. They only share good news about themselves as much as I looking myself from better angle only. What kind of art can I create if there's no self in it? I copy the other people's style? creating certain mood? Am I satisfied with it? The earthquake to me is a death that might come anytime. I might die with the earthquake, if not tsunami, if not by the third situation which most people will be affected, hunger, coldness, no fuel, bacteria, new diseases, fight even there could be a war in those disparate situation because countries realize that the resources are limited and they need to reserve more for their own country. Middle east, China, Russia could start the next war because they already have much potentials. Worst case scenario is the nuclear war. that cannot be help. no one can help even the earth itself. we will be refuge in the universe as a wondering spirits trying to look for a place to start over again for billion years. I think about the value.
Since the childhood, I was carried out by my parent's value. I remember my first time. I was three or four and was going to the violin tuition every week. I did not practice the violin unless my mother tells me to practice. that week, I was not practiced and was the time to go to the class. I had no doubt but going to the lesson and my mother suggested that it might be okay to skip the class. It was my first time I every skipped the class in my life. And it taught me that it's okay to skip the class. It became my value and I had been skipping many classes since. But I cannot blame on naive young mindset. I could be strong to insist of going to the lesson even without any practices. With practice or no practice, it was me and I did not need to hind from anything. So my value was hidden by the outside force because of the lack of self esteem. With or without the lesson, it was still me and was worth to I read prediction site. They say that there will be more earthquakes in Japan including floads and plate sinking. There will have geographical change and death of huge percentage of population. We knew about 2012, been talking about it for awhile. And I think the time has come. I should be prepare for any material loss includes house and money. I should be also prepare for loss of life includes myself ... and I wish to have a one day that I love myself includes my negative point and love others as much as I do for myself.  |
